Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
Total weight change: 10 lbs, so gained 2 lbs this week. Still having a tough time with the weight gain issue. I realize it's all pregnancy and normal part of the process, but somehow gaining more the "recommended weight" makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong. I feel a little helpless at the way my weight is going up and up, regardless of how healthy I eat or the exercising I do... A friend who recently had a child told me to throw away my scale and rely on the doctor's office to relay if I was gaining "too much"- what can I say I like being in control...My tummy is getting huge though- seems like a lot of growth going on recently!!
Maternity clothes: Really enjoying adapting my dresses into work-wear with leggings and tights. In terms of pregnancy purchases, I bought a few items at Motherhood Maternity, which I really love: these leggings (which fit more like skinny pants and of a thicker material than typical leggings- I could LIVE in these!!) and these spanx like shapers- they're perfect in terms of smoothing out lumps and bumps but have plenty of material around the belly. Love this! Oh and this dress is so perfect for work- only wish they made it in more colors.
Stretch marks: no
Sleep: on and off. Not as good as last week, and find myself not sleeping as deeply and tossing and turning :( Have also returned to 1st trimester like fatigue- probably related to the not sleeping well.
Movement: see above
Food cravings: still having the same food aversions... still really hungry... still craving sour.
What I miss: sushi still... and this wknd we went out for my favorite Mexican meal, and I really missed a strong margarita on the rocks with salt - mmmmmmmmm
Milestones: I can't believe I just started the 5th month of my pregnancy.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Breakfast, 8am: home-made smoothie (banana, yogurt, protein powder, strawberries)
Snack, 10am: a few crackers and cheese
Lunch, 1pm: a big spinach salad with chicken, avocado, chick-peas and other veggie goodness, a whole wheat roll
Snack, 4pm: orange
Snack, 5pm: hard boiled egg, 2 raisin cookies my co-worker brought in
Dinner, 8pm: lentil soup, rice, veggies
pro: this for me was a fulfilling food day- I felt good eating it, and it was all delicious. Plenty of fruit, veggies, and good carbs.
con: well not a con, but tomorrow I'll remind myself to actually eat from the big jar of almonds, walnuts and cashews I've taken into work
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Lunch, 1pm: a Subway chicken breast footlong on wheat, which I inhaled
Snack, 6pm: a twinkie. Still at the office and starving, so the vending machine got the better of me :(
Dinner, 8pm: two softshell tacos, a side salad, some chips and salsa
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Thursday, March 18, 2010
- the rate of people falling sick from eating raw fish (1 per 2 million) is far less than that from eating chicken (1 per 25,000).
- Japanese restaurant's kitchens are often the cleanest of all restaurant kitchens
- FDA guidelines require all raw fish to be flash-frozen first, this process kills harmful parasites, as well as cooking would
Surely, I don't think it's worth taking unneccesary risks. My regular sushi spot is a place I've been going to for some 5 years now. I know and trust their quality. I also for the most part plan to stick to cooked fish rolls but if the urge for a raw roll strikes, I know I'll feel fine eating it. Today I ordered the raw salmon roll, and people at the table actually asked if I was planning to eat it. I shared my thoughts and two of the women at the table admitted they'd also eaten raw fish rolls while pregnant... I guess many of us are just too scared of having fingers pointed at us for doing so.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Total weight change: almost 8 lbs- so I seem to be going at the 1 lb per week route. Which confounds me. I walk 2 miles every day (to work and back home), and have resumed my 3 times/week gym regimen (low intensity activities like the stationary bike and the elliptical). I want to work my way back into yoga as well. After some junk binging during 1T, I am back to my normal eating habits. I'm hungry alot, but am planning my snacks so that I am not tempted to eat chips and other goodies at work (I pack carrot sticks, hummus, whole grain crackers, boiled egg, apple etc). So it startles me to see the weight gain every week. I know things are growing in there but 1lb a week while eating fairly healthy and excercising seems like a lot.
Maternity clothes: the little belly is finally starting to show :) which I love! And also really happy it's finally Spring in NYC. I've been wearing my usual dresses, with tights and a blazer or cardigan and getting by in terms of work wear. Need to go do some real maternity shopping in the coming weeks. Going shopping is my guilty splurge, and especially in this city where shopping is ever present, it's hard to not browse. Lately seeing it's not exactly like I can fit into anything at the trendy boutiques, my credit card hasn't gotten as much use. Today I purchased two pairs of flats in bright colors- happy!
Stretch marks: no
Sleep: much better. Have slept well this entire week. I get up to go pee, but have been getting right back to sleep. I think the working out is contributing to this.
Best moment this week: hmm.. just the beautiful weather we've been getting, which makes me stop and admire the life blooming all around us.
Movement: Nothing new. I have to say I'm really looking forward to feeling the little one's movements hopefully soon.
Food cravings: sour things, apples, mangoes, pineapple
Gender: husband and I have started referring to it as "our son".. :)
What I miss: sushi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Still have been having it atleast once per week, but I do miss my raw fish rolls.
What I'm looking forward to next: going on vacation in 2 weeks to visit my parents in Asia (they're expats currently based in Thailand)
Milestones: 2nd Tri happiness
Saturday, March 13, 2010
today I am going through my closet. Taking down the clothes I already don't fit into, making space for the things I may still fit into...making space for Spring and all the promise it holds. Making space for the you that is growing strong and steadily in my belly. As I gently fold these clothes, I think of how my body is changing ... really how everything is changing. I smile as it occurs to me that I most likely won't bring out this work wear until 2011. I wrap you, albeit my belly, in my warm embrace and think how natural it feels that I love you already so much. And as I smile all to myself and do a little dance, with Ms. Kreviazuk playing in the background, her lyrics strike a chord. You feel like we already belong to each other, and I know that when we finally meet some 5.5 months from now we'll already know each other. I your mama, you my baby.
Your father and I have wanted you for so long. And just the thought that you'll be with us soon makes tears of happiness, endless joy, stream down my cheeks. You, our little miracle. You, our little love.
"If you knew how happy you're making me.... I never thought I'd love anyone so much. It feels like home to me."
Friday, March 12, 2010
As for the doppler- found the heartbeat! Thanks ladies who left comments for your advice. I looked in exactly the same place as last time, and it took 5 minutes, but this time found both my own as well as the babies... and you're right they're distinctly different.
Have a lovely weekend everyone! I for one am looking forward to not doing much and getting in some extra sleep.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Work has been hard all week- too much to do, too little time. And not having the same energy level makes it all the harder.
Plus my back has been bothering me all week long. Even the chiropractor, which normally helps me, has made no difference. I've been in constant pain.
After a week nausea free, I've had a friend rear it's ugly head : food aversions. Day time it seems ok- I have oatmeal for breakfast, snack on fruit, eat a salad or sandwich for lunch, some crackers maybe for a snack. But come dinner time, this whole week it's been the same issue- I get so nauseous just thinking about food that I'm unable to eat.
As a result the husband and I have been fighting. He says he doesn't know what he's supposed to do. And to me it feels like he doesn't understand how much I'm going through right now. I'm the one not sleeping well from the back pain. I'm the one struggling at work. I'm the one having to make so many changes in my life. Gone are the days of having energy to socialise with friends or have a drink after work. Today he came home after a few happy hour drinks. He was hungry, assumed I'd eaten, he ate.
I sat fuming all the while. It was past 8, I was starving, and couldn't bring myself to eat anything.
Needless to say pregnancy hormones + nausea + hunger does not make for a happy wife.
I screamed more than I should have. I cried buckets of tears.
He went to sleep in the other room, making me even more furious.
I know my husband means well. I know I am basically acting like a stranger to him these days. And yet I don't know how to communicate my needs with him it seems. We've never had this problem before. But these days I feel like my moods are such a stranger to me myself, I don't know how to explain them to anyone else... And I'd almost say I resent that I am the one who has to go through all of this. I want acknowledgement from him almost constantly that he knows how much I'm going through. I want him to pamper me constantly to atone for this.
I'll probably delete this post before tomorrow because it feels a bit like I'm airing my dirty laundry. But I write this blog to be honest, and this is just what I'm feeling right now.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Today I got the one I'd ordered on Amazon (at the reccomendation of several ladies on here)- the Baby Sounds Fetal Doppler. I found the heartbeat after a few minutes in my lower right belly area, way way down there. The digital reader seems off, but even counting ourselves I got around 80 heartbeats/minute, which seems too low to be the baby's.
Looking online, found this: "At times, the doppler picks up sounds from the mother's side of the placenta and relays her heartbeat instead of the fetus'."
I found my own heartbeat in my chest area and the count was around 80, so the one I'm picking up in my lower belly could very well be my own. Although it's weird that that's the only place on my belly area I can hear a heartbeat... even if it's my own.
Ladies who have experience with a doppler- how'd you find the baby's heartbeat? How did you differentiate it from your own?