Wednesday, January 6, 2010

speechless

Today was a day I'll never forget.

Today we had our first sono appt and I saw my little bean, or atleast the sac version of our little baby.

I was overcome with so many emotions... how long we've wanted this... those nights where I was convinced it'd never happen for us... how I cried after those injections... how since our BFP our excitement has had to be contained... and I also felt an irrepressible excitement. To feel that my love affair with this little miracle has started.

Today I saw that things are going well. Today I feel the first glimmer of optimism for myself. That maybe I can worry just a tad less.

Husb and I went out to celebrate afterwards at one of our fave restaurants. Had a nice meal and giggled over our little bean's sono picture.

For once today I will allow the joy to take over, and put the little nagging voice in the back of my head on mute.

7 comments:

Jill said...

Yay for a great appointment! It's impossible to not fall in love, even when it looks like a little blob. :)

Kelli said...

Agreed, Jill! :)

Glad that you're able to enjoy this some now...savor it, my friend. Prayers that things continue to go well...

trying in Manhattan said...

thanks ladies!

got a good night's sleep last night too finally.

though I have to say my elation hasn't lasted long. Couldn't help but google what others were seeing at 5w4d... and most claim to have seen the yolk sac/fetal pole... This IF thing never stops haunting you does it??

Red said...

Hi, just wanted to say Congratulations. Hope your prayers have been answered, and hopefully we can be bump budies come September.

[cre] said...

oh wow! That is just awesome! Congratulations!!!!!

Kelli said...

No, NYC...I don't think that the IF ever stops messing with your mind. I'm 17 weeks now and still have minor freak outs DAILY. I worry constantly and live for OB appointments...I am an u/s junkie. :) Of course, I live in fear of OB appointments, too because I'm afraid that they'll find something wrong everytime I go...I'm a wreck. LOL. I hope you handle things better than I do!

Just hang in there and take it...enjoy it...one day at a time. That's easier said than done, I know! It's completely out of your hands at this point (even though control freaks like me can't stand that idea). And leave good ol' Google alone...they never have anything good to say to me. ;)

Have a great weekend!

Ashley said...

Congratulations on your exciting news!!